They say that everyone is fighting some battle. I know. Life is so unpredictable and it can be awful. My battles, fortunately, don't include any kind of life-threatening illness...or at least none that I know of. I am so blessed for this and I am thankful. I thank God every night for all the great things he puts in my path; for keeping my family safe and for giving me nice people; good people to work with, be friends with.
My battles are fairly benign. I struggle with a career that I don't feel I own. I feel it's not mine; I just rent it. I try to call my own shots and I guess mostly I do but there is so much I can't do without approval. I struggle with being articulate to convey my ideas and I find my inabilty to do so hinders me. Like so many people, I have lost loved ones and the weight of that loss is heavy on me but as time goes on, fortunately, it is getting lighter.
I find that most of my struggles come from other people, from their disposition towards me. Yes, I know...I allow this to be an issue. I just can't understand why everyone is NOT happy and willing to show it. I know everyone handles stress differently; I get that but to be short, moody and withdrawn just because you're busy..that just doesn't jive with me. At work we are all busy. You can only get so much done in a day and being short with people, frowning, waving them away like a gnat...isn't going to make your load any less. So where's the logic?
Life is just too short to be short. There is nothing good to come out of being grumpy or negative. Nothing! So why? I just don't get it. Now if you are always moody, which I guess wouldn't make you moody because moody would illustrate a high and a low; if you are always in a funk...okay, I'll cut you some slack. If this is how you want to spend your life, whatever. But if you dabble in good uplifting moods from time to time and find some kind of kick out of lulling your co-workers into a false sense of commorodity...well, knock it off. Eventually they are going to catch on; throw their hands in the air and be done with you.
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I think that the battle you are referring to is caused some pain or sorrow. But the greater part of this pain is unnecessary. It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life. Believe me, observing it is easier to say than do. The pain that is created is some form of nonacceptance or unconscious resistance to what is.
On the level of thought, the resistance is some form of judgment. The emotional level, it is some form of negativity. The intensity of pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment and how strongly your mind identifies with it.
But watching your own reaction to what is happening in your life at that moment will bring it to light. Ask yourself and I do it to, what is my problem right now, not 10 minutes from now or even 10 minutes ago, but right now. It really makes it easier to handle. Then it is easier to accept. Then if it requires action, it is easier to do. It happens all the time with me and I have been in some tough situations, especially at work.
It looks like you are observing your reactions. But also remember their problems are not yours. If they want to be miserable, so beit, but you don’t have to.
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