November 12th, 2004

I had to get a hold of Dr. Hook to find out what TIN he was using. I called him and he came to see me today. I got the information and thought that was all I needed. He left. I realized I had more to ask him so I had him paged. Apparently he was in with Marc who called my extension. Marc said, "You're looking for Dr. Hook?" Sounds fairly innocent a question, but the reflection in his voice made it sound like, "What could you, mistress of the simple minded who's job could be done by a monkey, possibly want with a man so important he meets with me?" I know, I know, I'm reading too much into it...but that's the feeling right now.

November 9th, 2004

Why did I have this overwhelming desire to flip Mike Schaeffer the bird this morning? I was driving into the parking lot early this morning and there he was trampsing his way to the door and for this split second, when he looked at me through my windshield, I wanted so much to give him the finger. How weird is this? More later.

October 20, 2004

If anyone at works asks me what I want for my birthday, I will say this..."I want to be prevey to something before the general employee population is made aware of it. I want to be trusted. I want to be a part of something, a decision, something. There have been changes at work. I am too busy to try to find out what's going to change; I don't have time to put my ear to the ground. But I want to know." Okay, Okay, I know this isn't about me. I know I have a tendency to personalize it. I just want to feel included. Is that so bad? There have been changes right around me and I wasn't given the info until everyone else was and that doesn't seem right. Of course, who am I to ask for this. Just another loney peon.

I'm joining the Y. Let's see if I stick to it. You have to get in the habit to exercise like you brush your teeth. You do it everyday. (Brush your teeth at least twice though.)

September 22, 2004

I'm a little annoyed with myself. I went to Buffalo and I did not write...not here...not anywhere. What is the matter with me?

My flight was good even though I had this God awful headache the whole time. I can't complain though. At least the Big D stayed away. It was good to see my mom and dad. Their house is such a mess though. I did do some cleaning for mom though.

Kathy's wedding was nice. There were a lot of people there we hadn't seen in a while. She seemed happy. Michael seemed happy too.

I saw Lori for breakfast on Friday morning. She's going okay but needs to get away from Eric. He is just too abusive. She deserves better. She just can't be alone...she's one of these women who can not stand on her own...she has to have a man in her life. or at least she believes this to be true.

I have to do better at this writing. I will try.

September 9th, 2004

Just a quick word here. I can not take a lunch as I must leave in 40 minutes for class.

Philip is leaving tomorrow for Buffalo. I will take him to work and then get him in the afternoon and take him to the airport. I'm looking forward to the time alone but not like I had in the past. I think this is because I know on Wednesday, I too will be flying to Buffalo. The whole travel thing scares me. It is really trust to get on a plane. You are really trusting the pilot and the crew. Yes, I guess you can say that about getting into a car and driving with someone except, your chances of surviving a driver error in judgment is a lot better than a pilot's error in judgement.

Anyway, it will be nice to have the house to myself this weekend. No baseball! There will be football on Sunday though. I will get a lot of my reading done so I don't have to do it in NY.

This morning I saw on Good Morning America a story about this school in Russia where terriorists took it over and killed hundreds of kids. I don't know their reasoning; doesn't seem like anything could justify that anyway. I think the only thing that can happen to stop all this madness is if aliens came down and told us to wise up. This is what we need. Extraterestial scaring the bejesus out of us. This free choice crap isn't working so something else has to do it. Of course, I'm hoping the aliens then leave us and don't hurt us either. Could be a good book.

Back to work for now. Later.

September 6th, 2004

Happy Labor Day. It is almost 10pm. I had started a journal....a real journal with acid free paper and a special pen. Okay, the pen is not that special but it writes well on the new paper. I don't think I will write about everything in that paper journal though. Not that I have anything to hide..okay I have a little to hide. In my Public Info System class that started two weeks ago, we talked about values and attitudes and ethics. I was hoping the teacher would call on me because I think I have something to say to a class of 20 year olds. Oh, maybe not. Maybe all 43+ year old people think they have something to say. Anyway, I'd say I can remember when Phil and I first got married. Shortly there after Alan Jackson came out with a new song that went something like, I"ll try to love only you. I remember being so incensed by it. I even called the radio station and told them how stupid the song was. "I'll try to love only you." What kind of crazy talk is that. Of course you will love only me! 17 years later, I understand. It's hard to stay focused. Wierd.

August 9th, 2004

I'm on hold. Great time to Blogger. Phil is off work today. I'm bored at work. I have tons to do but I am still bored. Still holding. I'm thinking I should go through my day inventing everything....just randomly making stuff up so I can learn how to think quickly...like they do on Who's Line is it anyway? I need to practice. Could help with the boredom problem. No longer on hold. Back later.

August 8th, 2004

Okay, here I am. No excuses. I'm not good about writing. I have good intentions and...well, we know what we do with them. I'm here now so let's be proactive and move on. I think about life in Buffalo and the only events that stick out in my mind is the friggin snow and having to take the bus. I don't remember what Phil and I did together. I try to think of "memories" and they are so few. I remember that time when the Mahoneys came over for Ma's birthday. Elliot took a swipe out of the birthday cake. I had to fill it wil more frosting. I told everyone about it though...didn't want them to think I was trying to get away with something. I remember the chicken fingers at Vince's PIzza Plus. I remember how it pissed me off that the neighbors didn't care if I lived or died.  I remember not having a car and depending on Kathy Killeagh to pick me up and all the hard times she gave me over that. I remember the snow up to my knees as I made my way up to Tonawanda Street to catch the bus. That was not a happy time.  That's all.

July 9th, 2004

Ok....let's try this again before I am too tired to do anymore. I will not promise to be good and write everyday. This is what I want to do but I just don't. I have no excuse. Anyway, here's what is happening.....

I finished my Advertising Graphic class at UCO. I don't know my grade yet but I would think I got an A. It was fun. I also wrote a couple letters to the editor at the Vista, the college paper. One was disputed by another student. I wrote back my response but they didn't print it. It was fun.

I have another article coming out in Oklahoma Woman. It is suppose to hit the streets tomorrow. Pam an I are going out to Jimmy's Egg so I will see if it has been delivered then.

Poor Liz. Her son will need heart surgery. She's really afraid for him. She is too nice a person to have this happen. I keep telling God, make bad things happened to bad people and that'll straighten them out.

Oh man, I got to go to bed. More tomorrow.

June 8th, 2004

This new schedule is taking some getting used to. I am in class from 8-10:30 and at work by 11. Don't know when to eat lunch since I will not have dinner until 8 at night. Weird.

School is good. Work is busy. No time to write just stuff.

June 1st, 2004

Here I go again. Not writing for days and days. Shame on me. Today was my first class of Advertising Graphics. It will be very interesting. Need to learn the MAC. There is about 10 of us. I'm probably the oldest, including the teacher. He seems like he will be very good, knowledgable. Hope he's patient. I have to see if my USB media card will work to save files. Today we just went over the basic stuff. I was at work by 10:am. That's good. More Later.

May 19th, 2004

Doing better with writing. It is just after 11:am. Liz is out and Debi is at lunch. I've been very busy with Luminxing. Busy Busy Busy.

We had a Lobby Chat. There is a possibility of losing my job if PLICO Malpractice goes under. That would be interesting. I'll try not to worry. I'm employable, this I know.

I checked out my new Francis Tuttle Elearning. I have a lot of lessons awaiting me. I made the mistake last night of having Brandy w/ my diet vanilla Coke. I was too tired to do anything. Slept real good until after 10pm. I was up a little more but then around midnight went to bed and couldn't sleep. What else did I expect. Anyway, I'll look at it more tonight.

More later..maybe.

May 18th, 2004

I'm going to write everyday no matter how mandane. Last night I worked on John's computer. I can't get it to email. He's lost but will have to be patient. I didn't get home until 8:45. Phil was at his Excel class. He was home a little after 9:pm. So much for my peace and quiet.

I had an awful headache this morning but it got better after lunch. Thank Gawd..It was really hurtin' me.

Tonight we are having roast Chicken, corn and broccoli w/ cheese for me. I don't know if Phil has a baseball game or not to watch.

I signed up for Elearning w/ Francis Tuttle. I have access to a ton of lessons. I will check it out tonight.
That's all.

May 17th, 2004

See how bad I am. I can't even write the simple mondane stuff. It's Monday. Yesterday was our anniversary...17 years. Hard to believe. We went to Steak and Ale. I had a little steak and a little ale. It was great.

Earlier we did the back lawn. Then I went to the mall. Supported the economy just a bit.

Today is okay. Got to work at 7:30. I will go to John's tonight. Phil starts a class in Excel tonight.

May 12th, 2004

Phil's back from NY. Debi's out as her son gets married on Saturday. School is out until 6/1.